Time: 11:34 PM
Weather: Thunder and rain
Topic: General, Mental health

Ended up disappearing again for a bit! I've been checking everyone's pages but I haven't been very active on here. I've been dealing with a lot. My mom got surgery but has had some difficult things happen in the post op so she's basically back at negative square three. I'm taking care of everyone and doing pretty much all the household chores and daily stuff. What little time I had has primarily been dedicated to getting back into vtubing. It's been almost a year since I streamed so I'm pretty much back at square one. It's been fun and very freeing to reinvent myself. I'll share my Twitch here soon once I get my outgoing page in order! All that said, I've gotten into a good routine so I'll be at least updating the daily song and posting here and in the media diary!

I've been going through a lot of mental health stuff lately. I'm trying to start medication again for the first time in seven years, though with caution. Everyone in my immediate family tends to be pretty sensitive to antidepressants, including myself. What are considered small doses for most people gives me similar side effects to if a person was prescribed too much. I had pretty bad experiences as a kid with reckless prescribing and negligence so I'm nervous to try it. But honestly, now that it's summer and the only thing I have to worry about is my mom, now seems like the best time to try it again. It helps that I'm an adult and I'm the one actually in control and advocating.

Aside from all that stuff, I finally finished up my fifth Homestuck reread. My last one was in 2017, if I remember correctly, so it's officially been five years. Expect an upcoming media post on that, though it's going to take me quite a while to compile all my thoughts considering how long Homestuck itself is and how much I have to say.

Alright, with all that said, I'm going to go finally update the song!